I hate the stigma
that just because I'm married
I can't fall in love again
I am afraid to tell people I am married
because I crave attention
like my body craves air
and I am afraid that if they knew
they would leave me
I do not lie
I just don't tell the whole truth
and because of this
I am afraid I will lose everyone
when they learn what I haven't said
My biggest fear
is being abandoned
I care too deeply
about people I meet
because I know in the end
they will only get hurt
I still fall in love all the time
I die inside
when I hurt someone
by caring too much
The way I claim to feel for them
is never a lie
My biggest fear
is being alone