Inside is Loss

Inside my head
there is confusion
pain and confusion
and uncertainty

Inside my heart
there is loss
sadness and loss
and hurt

Within my life
I have lost
he who was my friend
is lost

I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to talk
I can do none

I have not felt
this way before
why does it
torture me now

I loved I lost
I forgave I wished
I was not forgiven
that may be it

I knew it would come
the final goodbye
so why does it hurt
so much anyway

I forgave but was
not forgiven
instead I was
just forgotten

I have moved on
so why am I
still here waiting
for it to begin again

Empty promises
are all I got
so why do I
forgive and still trust

Because I love
now and forever
but I cannot say
for he will not listen

He doesn't understand
he wouldn't understand
I may be immature
but he acts more so

I still like him
but I can not trust
for I got too many
empty promises

He needs to know
a promise is to keep
not to give
and forget later

It's all confusion
pain and hurt
love and hate
like and distrust